How do you do things with a broken heart

the itinerary of a broken hearted:

I sleep on it for several tmes as if when I wake up it will all be gone

I eat some more as if when I'm full I won't hunger for solutions anymore

I hit my head against the wall as if brain damage will erase my pains

I spend sometime reading mangas as if I can imitate the character's resolve

I reread my confusions and reminisce on my late night stroll and started to tear up as if I was abandoned for years

I tune into the television's white noise fading as if it will be like my troubles

I prayed a couple of days for divine intervention as if it's a hopeless case

I got to face this two-holed broken heart, maybe try to fix it... Though i don't know how and where to start

But I won't stay in this state for long, I won't be defined by this state, I refuse to. I will move on, stronger.

Maybe I am lost... I lost myself when I imploded with all that I had, all i ever wanted

I am a loser after all