i need to consume

what's this? i can't sleep...
i have be deprived of proper rest
is this a toll of all the sleep i've gain from sleeping
 on my way to school and back home?

remembering my way home earlier makes me smile.. a little bit
after sometime i rode the train (lrt from bambang) again and was able to take a seat!!
and across my seat is a window were no heads obstruct my vision of the cloudy afternoon sky
against the different buildings, trees, other object that would make a very amazing silhouette against the sun
the scenery was perfect, maybe if i'd be munching on some biscuits...

biscuits...i love eating sweets and i dread the possibility of acquiring related disease/s
but i just can help eating on sweets.. i favor the mild flavored sweets
 so that my palette wont be overwhelmed by a punch of sugar,
have i tried consuming pure granulate sugar.
yes! i hated squid adobo and the taste it leaves behind so when i was young
and was compelled to eat it, i take a spoon of sugar,
 not to be taked as a spoonful - more of varying amount,
after each intake of the viand.


reminiscing on the past is bittersweet as always...
first, the diminished possibility of recreating these memories.
the people, pets and possessions you were with
and the simplest moments like walking around the school grounds will be overwhelmed by memories that are different and traumatic.